Sunshine//Regular Maintenance Is Required

When the sunlight comes and I don't see it. Doesn't mean I am in bereavement. It just means I have closed my eyes. And watched what was going on inside. While I might have missed the colors out there. The pictures I saw are mine to share. I would if I could but I likely can't. Turns out it is in my own writing but at a slant. All tilted and wobbly and mostly imperfect. Scratches that weren't there surfaced. It was supposed to be mine to hold and dole. But my hands were too busy counting the blessings they had stole. So only now do I wonder if I was the one closing my eyes? Or had I been given the wrong disguise? But I hate nothing more than asking a question I already know. The answer was always just go with the flow... It just kept flowing and flooded. The source exploded and cold blooded. Wall off the area. Quarantine the malaria. Rub some dirt on the cut. Sanitize the...what?
Clean up the act. Rearrange the fact. I just came here to say that it is a beautiful sunny day.
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I took my own path.
It was gravel covered with pavement.
The weeds started coming through with wrath.
It refused my acts of enslavement.

I have taken my mind to too many places.
It kept warning, lights kept flashing.
Head held down to avoid high spaces.
It's so dark you don't notice the particles smashing.

I took my body to the mechanic.
It kept trembling. 
He said I'd need be galvanic.
It was great that I'd noticed it disassembling.

I have taken the oil out of the machine.
It was dirty.
I have replaced it with medicine.
It shouldn't have waited until past thirty.

I took my self to ask for help.
It was the only thing I could think of.
I cried and I begged and I yelped.
It was responded to with love.

I have taken my pride out of it.
It was fake anyways.
I see it was always shit.
It should have never been allowed a say.

I accepted a ride to freedom.
It was always there to take.
I can never repay the actions of some.
It will have to do that I say "thanks".